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OK ill try make this a short as i possibly can but feel i need to try get some kind of help as at the min am up S**t Creek without arms let alone a paddle. Yes its all been my own doing, but now i have no were to turn and thinking thoughts which are not good to just make it all go away.
I am 32 now and just to give you some quick background- a freind took me to a casino was i was 18 and just starting uni --- i become hooked on roulette the Devils game, anyway i opend numerious bank accounts back then and had a min of £1000 overdrafts off them all, i also manged to take out loans - even my student loans were blown on gambiling, i got by and scrimped and scarpped and for 5 years this went on.. must of been easily over 30K worth of debut.. Borrowing off friends family and everyone who i could... It finally come to a hault in a bad way with a court case, were i was found not guilty of a crime i was accused of and i come clean to all my family i lost my best mate at the time....
So that woke me up and the gambiling stopped ( for the time being). So i started to pay all the people round me using my wages from a job i was in at the time, oh by the way because of my addiction that had taken over my life i never made it throu uni, just 10K worth of student loans... Having paid back my family an frineds I managed to get a decent job at 26 were i started on 25K a year - being in this job i wanted a new knowing i had CCJ's and lots of them and defaults i had no chance through normal channels so i took out one through a company yes car high intrest ect.. 2 years past and i dont really now how or why i starting placing football bets on the internet from their on in i was gambiling on horses and back to my old ways not as heavy as the first time until over the last year...
Anyway I lost the car as it was taken off my 3 years ago- i have managed to rack up about anthoer 10K worth of date in loans and payday loans
but the most worrying off all of this is by the end of this month i owe about 3.5K to friends and family and i have no idea how i can get it..... so i am gambiling what money i have had, have or get in chasing it... I even talked my brother into using his car to one of those auto money places to borrow me the money saying i will pay him back....
I have been a very cunning sly person of the years and despise me self for this...
I am constantly chased by companys, had balifts to the house, once my dad had to fork out 1,800 when a bailift come... They are not well off and are both now unemployed also....
I fell as thou i am a drain on everyone round me and bring them down or let them down, i owe my girlfriend money and even talked her into getting a payday loan for me.....
Basically i am F**ked the walls have closed in , i find it hard to breath now as typing this i can't sleep eat...
I am 32 now and just to give you some quick background- a freind took me to a casino was i was 18 and just starting uni --- i become hooked on roulette the Devils game, anyway i opend numerious bank accounts back then and had a min of £1000 overdrafts off them all, i also manged to take out loans - even my student loans were blown on gambiling, i got by and scrimped and scarpped and for 5 years this went on.. must of been easily over 30K worth of debut.. Borrowing off friends family and everyone who i could... It finally come to a hault in a bad way with a court case, were i was found not guilty of a crime i was accused of and i come clean to all my family i lost my best mate at the time....
So that woke me up and the gambiling stopped ( for the time being). So i started to pay all the people round me using my wages from a job i was in at the time, oh by the way because of my addiction that had taken over my life i never made it throu uni, just 10K worth of student loans... Having paid back my family an frineds I managed to get a decent job at 26 were i started on 25K a year - being in this job i wanted a new knowing i had CCJ's and lots of them and defaults i had no chance through normal channels so i took out one through a company yes car high intrest ect.. 2 years past and i dont really now how or why i starting placing football bets on the internet from their on in i was gambiling on horses and back to my old ways not as heavy as the first time until over the last year...
Anyway I lost the car as it was taken off my 3 years ago- i have managed to rack up about anthoer 10K worth of date in loans and payday loans
but the most worrying off all of this is by the end of this month i owe about 3.5K to friends and family and i have no idea how i can get it..... so i am gambiling what money i have had, have or get in chasing it... I even talked my brother into using his car to one of those auto money places to borrow me the money saying i will pay him back....
I have been a very cunning sly person of the years and despise me self for this...
I am constantly chased by companys, had balifts to the house, once my dad had to fork out 1,800 when a bailift come... They are not well off and are both now unemployed also....
I fell as thou i am a drain on everyone round me and bring them down or let them down, i owe my girlfriend money and even talked her into getting a payday loan for me.....
Basically i am F**ked the walls have closed in , i find it hard to breath now as typing this i can't sleep eat...
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